absint

 I taught last night that it would be a calm
one, but my mind didn’t want to let me be. It was excited by the news
of having someone to think of.
He said to me that he would have a <white night>, but as it
turned out to be, I was the one not sleeping. Tired but happy. Do I
really want this?
Yes.
He said MORE…

And he said:" You are the most beautiful present this holydays could have given
to me….

From now on we are we"

 So here I was at the party, arriving too soon, but better for me this way…
 I went to the bar, got me a bottle of beer and when I turned to
the left, here he was. Sitting at a table with another guy. He saw me
and stood up, waving a hand to me. Got to his table and after greetings
I said :” Here is too crowded, lets’ moove to this table"
He moved his beer beside mine… He was so ashamed and I was only smiling.
In his eyes I saw a lot of guilt, but it was nothing I wouldn’t expect.
 You have to accept my appologies, I now I’m a jackass…I should have called
 It’s fine, believe me. I got nothing with you, otherwise I wouldn’t have said
that I would come here.
No, it’s not fine, you’re too good to me.
Me smiling again. It’s fine, I didn’t want your promises. Everyone is
dooing how they’re feeling. I can’t judge …it’s not my place to judge
someone.
Now you’re making me feel a lot worse than before.
Shut up and let’s drink! I said it’s fine by me. Cheers!
….
…
I won’t stay here too long. I’ll finish my beer and go to the other party.
Do as you wish, but I would prefer you stay here.
It’s just that I want to dance, and here I’m not feeling that wibe..noone’s dancing.
Patience, the people are just gathering now.
.. ( after 1h)
Dancing me , dancing you…and than back to the table.
He looked at me and wispered Kiss me!
No!
He put his head down…I understand…It’s not the right place or the moment.
But if I’ll tell you to kiss me, would you do it?
The answer was in his lips.
…..

(after 3 h)
I tink I’ll go
No, you’ll go when I say so. Please stay ( He leaned over me and gave me another
kiss)
You think you cand buy me?

(after 1h)
 His head was on my shoulder and I felt his tears on me.He was just like a little
boy…
No, please leave me. I’ve drinked too much and when I drink I get into this mood
I understand, it’s just this song that reminds you… I understand. Get
his head on my hands, kissed him on the forehead and then I just stayed
there, hugging him while he cried. He was such a vulnerable person.
(after a while)

Taxi ride.